Monday, October 5, 2009.

♥ 5 October 2009

I know I sounded annoying to say this..
But I really had a bad omen that I wouldn't be able to promote.
It's just so different.
The lack of confidence in exam.. not even a tiny weeny bit left.
Was so accustomed to exams all these years.. I thought perhaps I could handle them this time..
But no. It failed me.
I knew I under-performed.
I could stare blankly in space for some time during the exam.
I hate this feeling.
But it came back to me just like how it occurred in me during common test.
After saying all the crap that I'm not bothered by promos.. who would want to bring home a lousy result slip at the end of the day?
I had thoughts of leaving, because these few months weren't enjoyable.
It just feels so numb.
Studying studying studying.
Maybe that wasn't where I should head off in the first place.
I don't know.
I just wish to get it over and done with.
That one week of intensive revision with Wan Ting was great.
But I don't think it'd help me in anyway for this exam.

For the very first time, I had absolutely no confidence in the exam and I know I'm heading doom.

Perhaps, by 29 April 2010 (flashforward!) , I would have been elsewhere.