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Dilemma

2011-08-31T19:07:00.002+08:00

Been trapped in the blue phase for quite some time.
I'm not sure why I'm turning like this- moody, pessimistic, despondent.
It's not what I want either.
But sometimes, others may not be able to understand. I know how annoying it feels to always have someone throw a wet blanket back at you even when you're nice and offer to encourage him/her.

I feel like I'm changing, but whether it's a good change or not I really don't know.
It's a misty sight in front of me, I know not of my future.
It's always a step at a time.
With uncertainty and risk.
It's not a very nice feeling either.

Right now, i'm struggling in the transition stage.
I can simply throw the towel in and give up.
Or I can choose to move on.
It's very extreme.
But I can't help it.
My mind's in a whirl and everything around me seems very hostile. And unfamiliar.
Maybe that's what they say by the term 'getting out of one's comfort zone'.

I really feel like giving up, though I don't like the feeling of failure.
I seriously don't.
I'm still struggling to accept the true fact that I gave up something I like. For something that's good and seems practical and a more safe option.
It's not easy trying to maintain my balance in the previous course.
Much less jumping to another totally different environment.
And don't know how to share these feelings with. Hmm.

There's nice people around who offer to help, yes i agree,
but ultimately it depends on how strong your will is.
If you have a weak will, nothing's gonna work out at the end of the day.
And I'm exactly in this situation now.
I don't know why I'm even studying.
For future prospects? For stability and security? That it's part and parcel of life? But..
Yeah true.

I'm just rambling here cos I need a channel to let these feelings out.
Tomorrow's a long day.
Not sure how I'll handle it but hopefully i'll survive it.
Life at this point is seriously bad.
To think I still say that my next 10 years is going to be very exciting as I'll be moving on from a student to a working adult.
And yet I'm already stuck at my first step outwards.
Sigh.

Till then.

I'm lost.

Mixed feelings and a promise to myself.

2011-08-23T17:57:00.007+08:00

I know..
that I've made a huge decision recently.
Till now, I'm still wondering how I mustered the courage to make such a choice.

Can't quite express how I'm exactly feeling right now. A mixture of relief and sadness and anticipation, i suppose?

It's strange that something I like becomes something that stresses me out too much.

Perhaps liken to the advice I read from a book:

"A huge sign that you've found your true calling is that you're a little bit afraid of it. There will be pleasure and pain- pleasure because you love it and it makes you happy, and pain because the stakes are so high. When it's about your heart's desire, failure becomes scarier. You care. It's your work. Your purpose. Own it." -The Amazing Adventures of Working Girl by Karen Burns

... I was overwhelmed by that fear at that moment and so I took the u-turn. It seems like a coward's act, but at that point of time, the stress/fear/pressure... those feelings were something that you cannot really understand unless you've been through it first-hand.

I did not regret coming out of it, but at times, I can't help feeling a bit nostalgic about the time I spent doing things there, although it was only for a week. It's afterall my interest, so I guess feeling that tinge of sadness that I'm moving away from my dream remains an inevitable fact. The fact that I cannot be an architect anymore. I can never forget how thrilled I was when I knew that I was accepted into this course back then. It's a very special feeling. But life is never smooth-sailing all the time.. some people take ages to reach their goals.. it all depends. I might have to take a longer route, but it's not necessarily bad. This is just the start of my life. I've a long way to go on and I'm not stopping because of this setback.

It hurts, but I look forward to my life in another new environment. It may not be easy; it's definitely not easy, but I'll try.

Another career advice by the working girl:

"It's never too late to be the person you were meant to be"

And, on the last note, I'm gonna make myself a promise here. I am not leaving my interior design dream forever. I'll be back! Even if it takes me forever to get there. That's how passionate I am about it. I know that after coming out from the current course, my route towards interior design related careers will become even harder. I might face more difficulties. I might not get there. But I'll still try. Try at a time when I feel I'm more mature and ready to embrace it. I can start reading up on materials related to interior design, talk to professionals, provide free labour in exchange for experience, anything. And anyway, I need not be an interior designer.. I can work for something that keeps me close to interior design. Or even, I can try to incorporate what I learnt in my new course together with my knowledge in design to make something impressive. Anything is possible.

I believe I can reach there one day.

If you happen to pass by my blog and see this post, please support me! Your encouragement will be deeply appreciated.

Right now, I think I still need some time to adjust to the changes. I know I'm not very good at managing changes. Plus all the feelings that I have no idea who I can share it with and decided to leave them here, I feel that time is what I need now to help me strike a balance.

Till then, hope I'll be happier the next time I come here.

4 more days.

2010-09-08T15:26:00.001+08:00

Sigh.

Life hasn't been great lately. Especially now. Im feeling so stressed up but I don't know who to talk to. And I don't know what to do. How sad can life get.

Stress.

21 January 2010

2010-01-21T19:40:00.003+08:00

Just realised CNY's less than a month! :O
Time flies-
too quickly.

Anyways, just a quick one..

Bought some art&craft stuff @ ArtFriend sometime ago..

Just started..

Halfway through..Completed! :D
It wasn't really what I wanted to show, but it came as a pleasant surprise eventually.
And I'm so proud of myself! Lols.

But I want to learn this! :D
(Not my work though, they are my inspirations!)

I've always wanted to create a dream house of my own.
A cosy one.
A unique one.
:D

5 January 2010

2010-01-06T12:26:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me!

Thank you to all who made it memorable. :D

1 January 2010

2010-01-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

... is loves! :D

1 January 2010

2010-01-01T13:47:00.004+08:00

新的一年又到了。
有一点不舍，也有一点的期待。

倒数前几天，我一直在想，在2010 年里我到底想怎么好好的过？
有很多想要学的东西，有很多我想做的事情，
但，就是做不完。

我的新年新希望跟以往有点不一样
以前的我，一直都很想达成这个，学学那个，
总相信我应该把时间铺得满满的才会是最充足的。
所以，愿望越来越多。
是完成了不少。

但今年的我，只想往一些目标前进。
毕竟，没有人是完美的。

1] 专心，努力地战胜A水准！
2] 瘦下5kg，一定要比以前更健康，结实！
3] 不要一直和过去拉扯着，要勇敢往前走！
4] 珍惜所有，懂得感恩！
5] 跟着自己心里的感觉走。

2010年，新年快乐！

29 December 2009

2009-12-29T14:49:00.002+08:00

Since young, we've been playing with toys.
The ones we love.
The ones that give us a clue on how the future is like.
The ones that hint us what kind of careers we are looking for.
Doctors, teacher, policeman, fireman, nurse, supervisor, f&b, etc.

(:

23 December 2009

2009-12-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

保留当初最美好的记忆，才回事以后最美丽的回忆。

23 December 2009

2009-12-23T13:14:00.001+08:00

Hate it when I have so much to say, but don't know where to start and who to share with.

20 December 2009

2009-12-20T11:35:00.005+08:00

有好多好多好多的话想说，却总是不知该如何开始。
结果，全都往自己内心深处躲着。
也只有自己知道。

(:

18 December 2009

2009-12-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

Unknowingly, our actions affect one another's thinking.

17 December 2009

2009-12-17T13:35:00.009+08:00

That's how I feel to know that you lied.

How long does it take for one to forgive another who lied?

Is forgiveness possible here?

Or will it just remain a flaw of that person's character forever?

Why, when given the chance to speak the truth, we chose to hide it with lies?

So, can I still trust you?
I really don't know. When I attempted to let it go, I realised I couldn't forget that image of you lying your way through.
Maybe it takes time to cover up all these, but it's a fact that it has once happened before.

Anyways,
to human is to err.
Maybe I shouldn't harp on this issue anymore and start moving on.
This is just part and parcel of life.
Nobody's at fault here, perhaps the environment we live in is.

------

If all of us had been more clear-cut and understanding, we might not have to live in a life of lies and uncertainties.

14 December 2009

2009-12-14T13:41:00.003+08:00

What happens when something you cherish
is not of significance to another?

14 December 2009

2009-12-14T13:05:00.003+08:00

Nice songs from Momo Love :D

7-11 December 2009

2009-12-12T11:21:00.024+08:00

For the past 5 days..

I was with the children.
And it's a rather mix of feelings.
But definitely a new experience.

3d2n camp @ NIE
Camp with over 30+ children from Mon to Wed with 3 other volunteers. (:
Jing Yi, Chen Teng, and Julian.
Didn't regret it, in fact, I enjoyed it.
I always felt so comfortable with these kids.
Cos they wouldn't hide their feelings when they talk to you.
And at times, what they say can really amuse you. :D

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(Random chatting before bathing)

Girl A: Hey you know, I'm wearing the slippers of the same size as my Mum.. I'm wearing an adult shoe!
Girl B: Wah, you feet like ELEPHANT eh.

---

(In the midst of a game, I think)

Boy A: Okay I give you one chance.
Jing Yi: Huh, one chance only ah.
Boy A: (thinking for a while) Okay, I give you three chances.

---

(Chatting)

Jing Yi: Guess how old we are...
Boy B: (answering very seriously) Hmm, honestly you look like 21...
Me: Me leh? (Anticipative)
Boy B: (still very serious) You look like.... 28
Me: !!!

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(Before bedtime, trying to get the girls to sleep)

Me: Okay.. when I say 1,2,3.. you all say good night to each other okay!
Me: 1...2...3...!
Girls: G-o-o-d n-i-g-h-t~ to each other!

...and then they chit chatted again! ):

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(On the way back to NIE from WCP)

Me: You know, I'm 26 years old already..
Boy C & Girl C: Really?
Me: Yup, and I got a son, 2 years old this year.
Boy C & Girl C: Then you den den den den already? (The wedding song)
Me: Yup
Boy C & Girl C: Then you wedding must invite me okay..
Me: Okay, but you must give me an angbao
Boy C & Girl C: Okay, I give you $50 angbao... (serious look)
Me: $50 not enough.. I treat you mac then you give me $50 bucks okay. :D

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(On the bus)

Me: Hey, teach me how to play Hamburger!
Girl D: (teaching) Hamburger, hamburger, ham ham ham! Sausage, chilli... COCONUT
Volunteers: Huh? Hamburger got coconut one? Is it scramble egg? Lol.

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(A sweet surprise)

Julian: (opens our bunk door) Hey, go in go in! Don't be shy! (encouraging)
Boy C: (blushes and ran away for a few times)

after a while...
Boy C: (came inside and sang Heal the World very seriously to us!)
JY/CT/Me: (Claps) Very nice!
Boy C: (Shy again and ran off)

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(Supper time!)

Boy E: (curious) Why you never eat the biscuits?
Me: Because I brushed my teeth already... and I kicked the habit of eating supper already.. I'm very fat also. (shows him my fat arm!) So I shouldn't eat so much.
Boy E: Huh, eat biscuits will fat meh. I eat alot also very thin. (Giggles and continues eating)

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And many more memorable moments with them. :D
I've also learnt alot from this camp, made new friends too.

To sum up everything..

5 things I've learnt:
1. That I can actually lead and be pro-active in the team too.
2. To be strict yet friendly with the kids is possible.
3. That no matter how naughty these kids are, they meant no harm eventually. (:
4. To take initiative and speak up to strangers. (I'm glad I did that!)
5. That result is not everything. (And now I really understand what it means!)

(:
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Harmoc SL @ CAS

Last 2 days with the kids for the week. Progress was slow.
At the end of this SL, most of them only managed to play Twinkle twinkle little star/ Little Bee.
Had headaches on some occasions, and realised that these kids are quite different from the ones I know in the camp.
So it was quite a challenge.
Shall not rant on the negative experiences though. Not many of it too anyway. :D
Haha, but on the whole it was a unique experience for me.

And a chance to bond with more Harmoc friends. :D

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5 December 2009

2009-12-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

Today's International Volunteers Day!
And our class happened to be volunteering for some annual family gathering @ Kallang CC this day. :D
Happy that most of us turned up, though it was real early, at 7.15am!

Was complaining about how tired it was previously...
but when everything was over, I felt all the effort was worth it.
(:

I was in charge of a game called 'On the UFO'
..where families have to step on a paper plate each, and transfer the last paper over to the first person who will then pave the route further to the finishing point.
It's simple, but encourages family bonding.
Saw many spontaneous families who played together.
It seemed sort of a silly game, but it was very comforting to see most parents participating in the activities.
And that could just be one of the most precious quality times spent with the family.
:D

There was buffet lunch (wow!) and some prize presentation.
Followed by a debrief where we shared what we had learned and the strengths and the weaknesses.
As my friend said during debrief, today's event also provided a platform for the class to bond and have a great time together.
Heard that we served about 60 x avg 3 members = 180 people today!

And..
..the most important thing of all today is:

All's well and everyone's happy. :D

"The world is hugged by the faithful arms of volunteers"
-5/12/09

3 December 2009

2009-12-03T20:18:00.003+08:00

I bought my electronic keyboard today! :D
Happy happy happy!

I finally see some light in my holiday break..
..especially after these few days of morning calls for school SL!
Buying that keyboard totally brightens up my today.

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Harmoc SL

Thought I wouldn't enjoy it initially cos I had to wake up so early in the morning and squeezed my way to those organisation centres.
But no doubt, the children/ youths were adorable.
The children at CAS were so full of energy, zest.. and so carefree.

My student was a rather interesting one too.
Telling me about his family, himself, what he knew about zombies and the banana tree that can defeat them...
without realising that we only know each other for just one day.

That's kids. (:

27 November 2009

2009-11-27T21:06:00.003+08:00

Power of Prayers

Day out with mummy today to Bugis.
Visited the temple there and said my prayers.

Not really sure if these prayers will be answered..
But it's just a belief that you hold, thinking that this will happen someday.
I guess, it will eventually be answered if one prays with sincerity.

And I'm glad I did so today.
Cause I'm holding the belief that the ones that I prayed for will be safe and sound.
The ones that impact my life.

:)

26 November 2009

2009-11-26T20:22:00.003+08:00

Harmoc Practices

I always learn something after each harmoc practice.
Like for instance,
I realised that it actually takes confidence for one to blow out the notes out loud and clear.
There's no way for uncertainty... or you'll end up with double notes.
That's probably one problem I have.
Being unsure.

But when I let all these anxieties go and play it as I wish confidently,
the music simply goes on smoothly, in fact, with fewer mistakes too.

That's so like life.
We always worry too much about things that sometimes might not even happen.
And as such, aggravate the situaton further.
---

Having SL project for the upcoming weeks..
Will be teaching harmoc to a little kid at CAS. Haha.
Definitely a nice experience to anticipate.

(:

25 Novermber 2009

2009-11-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

A Nice Encounter

Chanced upon my primary school teacher today.
The teacher who made me write many reflections, run up the stairs, taught us moral values, gave us endless worksheets to complete, made me realise that I can actually top an essay competition (school-base though)...

..but who also the one that had left a significant influence in my life.

Teachers like these are so worth our admiration. (:

24 November 2009

2009-11-24T11:02:00.002+08:00

That's how my brother associates me playing the harmoc at home.
Noise! :D

Hahas.

23 Novemeber 2009

2009-11-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

Coffee is not my cup of tea.
I always get some weird feelings after drinking them,
though they taste pretty good.

22 November 2009

2009-11-22T19:39:00.003+08:00

If only our future is like this..

Unlikely,
because opportunities don't come knocking our doors anymore.

How are you?

22 November 2009

2009-11-22T10:41:00.002+08:00

The reason why the skies are amazing. (:

20 Novemeber 2009

2009-11-20T19:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, I miss camping days. ):
And I cannot be there for this year's, for some medical reasons.
They must be enjoying over at WCP now.
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I want night cycling!
I want campcraft!
I want adventure race!
I want kayaking!
It'd better be bright and sunny these 3 days..
..or I'd grumble!
):

Looking back, I realised my sec school is all about camps.
I think I probably had 16 camps.
And each one is equally memorable. :D

Okay, I know I have to snap out of this grumpy feeling soon.

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I thought I saw you today, did I?

16-17 Novemeber 2009

2009-11-17T16:50:00.005+08:00

Just when you think you're the worst ever.. think again. (:

Attended some Emotional & Physical well-being workshop & Resilience workshop for the past 2 days.
It's like a psychology lesson..
Thought about many things while listening to the speakers.
And understood more about myself.

For instance, miscommunications occur because different people use different types of love languages.
There are 5 types.

- Quality time:
You enjoy company and wants your loved ones to be by your side.
- Acts of Services:
You appreciate your loved ones doing the little things for you.
- Words of Affirmation:
You prefer your loved ones to assure you they like you verbally.
- Receiving Gifts:
You like receiving gifts every now and then as an expression of love.
- Physical Touch:
You prefer hugging and kissing to express love.

I suppose I prefer more of the Acts of Services type.
Which one are you?

---
Another interesting one.
I belong to the Self-Indulgent student type.

I tend to
- procrastinate
- have difficulty 'starting' on tasks
- be alright with others taking responsibilities.
(which is so like me nowadays!)

Other 2 types:
Perfectionistic student
- Usually the only child/eldest
- More discipline
- Obliged to be successful

Tensed and Fearful student
- Middle child
- The 'whatever' type
(Couldn't remember why fearful)

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It's just so amazing how studying psychology can help people understand one another better.
(:

12 November 2009

2009-11-12T21:54:00.003+08:00

2012 with Alicia today! :D
It's worth it.
Got me emotional and laughing at some scenes.
It really made me ponder over how I should see some things in life.

I just find this picture very adorable. (:
Like 2 friends catching up with one another.
And 龟龟 on the right is my companion when I'm bored.
I love that smile on his face. (:

11 November 2009

2009-11-11T20:24:00.003+08:00

Badminton! :D
2 hours of fun with my friends after OP.
Tired, but definitely worth it.
It's been some time since I had a game like this.
Since holidays are here (or at least coming soon),
I shall have a game of badminton weekly! :D

6 Novemeber 2009

2009-11-06T19:51:00.002+08:00

Of all timings, I happen to fall sick now.
Just days before OP.
How.
/:

Flu and sore throat.
The illnesses that I've to avoid for this crucial period.
I can sense the other symptoms creeping in- probably a fever, cough and then...
voiceless.

I don't know what to do now.
It's probably a good excuse for me to speak less. (:
Nothing much to say anyway.
Those who know me will understand why I always don't talk in the morning.
Lols. Not being cool or something. Okay, partly moody cos I don't get my sleep.
And perhaps, just because I don't feel like it.

Okay. Popped some Panadol pills and back to rest. (:

4 November 2009

2009-11-04T20:20:00.003+08:00

All was fine today except for OP rehearsal. I just felt I wasn't prepared enough today. Boo. ):
And PW will be gone after 11 Nov! :D

Okay, back to rehearsal. (:

3 Novemeber 2009

2009-11-03T20:25:00.003+08:00

I got a strong urge to do some DIY stuff now! ):
I shall spend some time enjoying this after OP.
Or maybe I will do so.. before OP?
Hee. (:

Have a thought of doing up a blogshop.
But I've nothing to sell. Lols.

1 November 2009

2009-11-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

I just realised.. it's the end of another month.
And the start of another. (:

It's November now.
A year just (almost) passed by.

It's ups and downs for the whole year. Happy times, sad times, uncertain moments.
Hopefully they are all over.

And I can hear Santa's footsteps coming closer to me! :D
The reason why December is a month worth living for.

1 November 2009

2009-11-01T11:09:00.003+08:00

Something that happened to me on Friday.

It feels so great to be remembered.
Especially by someone you don't really relate much to in your life.

A chicken rice seller in PHS actually remembered me. (:
I don't remember me patronising her stall that often though.
Yet she could recognise me in another school uniform at NYP canteen.

(:

30 October 2009

2009-10-30T22:11:00.004+08:00

I've been having many dreams lately.. mostly bad ones though. ):

Here's one I've had this morning/ last night and the meaning I retrieved from a website...

(3) Losing teeth may symbolize a feeling of - or fear of - getting older or impotent or losing sexual attractiveness. Or they may represent a retreat to infancy (when, toothless, you enjoy your mother's breasts and nourishment), and hence a refusal to face reality. Alternatively, they may symbolize the start of a new phase in your life (knocking a tooth out sometimes featured in male initiation rites in mythology)

(4) A bad tooth may represent a painful or rooten part of one's feelings, life or relationships; angry or regretful words.

http://www.experiencefestival.com/meaning_of_dreams_about_teeth_falling_out

I dreamt that my teeth started to drop out one by one when I touched them... those were in the front row somemore! But when I tried smiling.. nobody was concerned or noticing that holes there..

I don't know. It was a weird dream, and a horrifying. And the meaning of the dream is sort of true about my thoughts right now. I can't believe this.

I wonder when will I ever get out of all these dreams.. I need my sleep! :(

21 October 2009

2009-10-21T18:31:00.004+08:00

Release of results.
This time, I didn't cry. Not at all.
Maybe I expected it. Maybe because I have been crying too much this year. Maybe I was just too numb by all these.

All along I had this feeling that 2009's a dream to me.
Right from the start of school, I didn't feel like I was living a life I wanted.

I don't know.
I just felt I'm a disappointment to those who believe I can, even if they didn't say much.

I'm sorry.

11 October 2009

2009-10-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

Life has been ups and downs recently.
So much I want to say, but they go off as fast as they come to my mind.

At times, I feel like I'm Rochester.
Not knowing who holds the truth.
Who is the one I should listen to.

Weekend's a break that I spent with my family and I learnt something.
That no matter what happens, home is the place I can head to.
Family is the one whom I can trust on.

And no matter what happens, family love does remain strong. (:

2009-10-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

I feel like doing this now. :D

7 October 2009

2009-10-07T18:13:00.001+08:00

I hate this feeling.
I feel it coming.
I don't want to be Rochester in WSS.

Not knowing whose words to believe.
:(

6 October 2009

2009-10-06T19:19:00.002+08:00

100th post (:

I survived Econs and Geog at one go today!
Though I think that I won't be doing well, I know.

Something made my day. I bought "Tombstone for Fireflies" home finally! (:
It's my childhood fave, now too.
And no matter how many times I watch, I always cry.

Okay. Back to studies. 2 more days.

5 October 2009

2009-10-05T18:44:00.002+08:00

I know I sounded annoying to say this..
But I really had a bad omen that I wouldn't be able to promote.
It's just so different.
The lack of confidence in exam.. not even a tiny weeny bit left.
Was so accustomed to exams all these years.. I thought perhaps I could handle them this time..
But no. It failed me.
I knew I under-performed.
I could stare blankly in space for some time during the exam.
I hate this feeling.
But it came back to me just like how it occurred in me during common test.
After saying all the crap that I'm not bothered by promos.. who would want to bring home a lousy result slip at the end of the day?
I had thoughts of leaving, because these few months weren't enjoyable.
It just feels so numb.
Studying studying studying.
Maybe that wasn't where I should head off in the first place.
I don't know.
I just wish to get it over and done with.
That one week of intensive revision with Wan Ting was great.
But I don't think it'd help me in anyway for this exam.

For the very first time, I had absolutely no confidence in the exam and I know I'm heading doom.

Perhaps, by 29 April 2010 (flashforward!) , I would have been elsewhere.

24 September 2009

2009-09-23T17:25:00.002+08:00

It's the same plot that anyone would expect, but I fell for it nevertheless.

"P.S I'm Sorry" on Channel U got me into tears again last night.
This time, it was a father and son story.
The father didn't let his son step into the house after the son left the home on spite.
Even when the son realised his mistakes and has repented, the dad is persistent in not letting him back home.

The host then requested to meet the dad and chatted with him over the son.
And when the son later went back to the house to knock at that door once again.. the door opened after some tries!
Oh my. That scene of the son stepping into the house once again.. the acceptance of his dad... and the possible reactions when they met after so many years.. it's just so touching. (:

And indeed, capturing the scene of the son entering the house again was definitely worth more than their joyous expressions of reunion.

Sweet happy ending. (:

21 September 2009

2009-09-21T11:14:00.001+08:00

Stress stress stress!

I can feel it's coming. 14 days more. Aww. The tensed feeling is back. And it's horrible. ):

4 Sep 2009!

2009-09-04T22:19:00.007+08:00

Yeah! :D
Holidays are here finally.
It's gonna be a busy mugging week, but at least it's a short break away from school.
Much has happened lately, but rather lazy to update...

My loveable class. (:

The GPictionary that made me laughed till I started tearing during GP! :D

Track's OOB (out of bounds)!
Which means, no running! :D
I like running though. Lol.

And not forgetting, gathering with 3/4 Faith 07/08! (:

Another term ended.
So much has happened. Time has passed so quickly.
GP teacher, Lit teacher & PW teacher are all leaving.
Just when we were used to having them around,
they are going off.
They are all great, inspiring teachers that made my JC life better. :D
Thank you!

28/8-1/9

2009-09-01T18:55:00.007+08:00

It's a mixture of feelings these few days.
I don't really know how to express it.

The nostalgic feeling of being with 3/4 Faith 07/08 once again..
the happiness from seeing the familiar faces & places..
the slight feeling of neglect from the surroundings..
and the disappointment in me.

Out of nowhere, I had this feeling in me that I'm one who tends to be easily forgotten by others.
So, I started recalling the possible things that I had done in that past that might have left some impressions..
but there wasn't any significant ones sadly. ):

Maybe it's alright to be imperfect at times.
Because nobody remembers the perfect ones on stage, but the one who falls and makes himself a fool.

21 August 2009

2009-08-21T23:07:00.004+08:00

Suddenly, I realise many things which I might otherwise still be clueless about.

I realise
...that I don't really look closely at everything around me at times.
...that I tend to take things for granted at times.
...that I am rather naive in certain issues.
...that there is no completely right or wrong answers in life.
...that there is no ugly people in this world.
...that I don't really mean it when I say I dislike harmoc (in fact, I think I'm enjoying it at times)
...that I still have many things that I want to do not yet done.

...and that life isn't really that bad afterall. (at least for now)

Okay. School days are getting better though busier. The company of friends is the key factor here. Days of laughter that flushes away our pressure. Thank you!

And so, life is really not so bad afterall! (:

2009-08-20T21:31:00.001+08:00

Something random. Haha. I think I fall under table 2 or table 9. :D

18 Aug 2009

2009-08-18T18:48:00.004+08:00

After tomorrow, those numbers would become history. ):

How much I really really hate experiencing C-H-A-N-G-E-S.
Why can't we just be who we are, doing what we want, staying at what we have?

It's just numbers, yes, but the ones that I've been pressing for 17 years.
Grown accustomed to it over the years, yet now I have to part with it.

If there's one thing I can change in life, I would remove change. (negative change preferably)
And this I would call it positive change.

19 June 2009

2009-06-19T19:36:00.007+08:00

I feel so trapped in it.
I think I'm really not okay right now.
For one more day I'm still not convinced, I'll still live in this cycle.
I guess I'll only be okay once I sort everything out,
and be convinced of my decisions.
Preferably not in the mean time.

I'm sorry if I don't look too friendly at times.
I'm just being myself? (:

17 June 2009

2009-06-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

I don't know what I'm hanging on to.
It's becoming so meaningless.
What's past has passed.
I shouldn't trap myself in it.
But it seems that I'm the only one who hasn't got out of it.
Why?

6 June 2009

2009-06-06T12:12:00.002+08:00

Am I the one pushing everything away,
or am I the one being pushed away?

It just feels so black out there.

1 June 2009

2009-06-01T18:59:00.014+08:00

My childhood faves! (:
Familiar? Haha. (:
If I have a chance, I wouldn't mind going back to the past for one more time.

Ninja Turtles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90Tueundpyk

Power Rangers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nX2Uqnc7v9I

7 May 2009

2009-05-07T18:44:00.002+08:00

It's when we lost it that we start to cherish.
Yet, all else will become history
and what lies ahead for us would be
another new road worth discovering.

19 April 2009

2009-04-19T18:56:00.002+08:00

Awww. I feel like giving it all up.
Dull routine. I hate it.
It's a never-ending process.
Each day of school is like #&@*!(#(!.
I find no meaning there.
And this feeling just doesn't get away
even after months.

Yet, tomorrow, all will be back to square-one once again.
Lectures, tutorials, tests, marks, grades.
A repeat of everything for yet another week.
How anticipating.

4 April 2009

2009-04-04T18:24:00.005+08:00

Something random.

Familiar? Haha! (:

3 April 2009

TGIF! Went back to PHS to collect SGC, and dropped by to see NP. (:
Sec1Squad'09 (:
Future leaders of PHSNPCC. Cool.
I was just like them 4 years back. (:

Sec1Squad'05. Spot me! (:

W/CI & Me! (:

How I miss it so much...!
TD, CC, Camps, Pumpings, R&B, PT, Drills!
Till now, I've yet to get used to sitting in the air-conditioned room for 3hours, playing harmoc continuously. Lols.

4 April 2009 (:
Hmm, I did CIP for almost the whole day? Lol, nowadays, only CIP has made my life slightly better from the dull school life in JC. Haha. Pathetic right, it's been so long since i went to town. ):

Morning was tuition programme @ yishun.
And I taught my child Fractions for Math, and did antonyms & cloze passages for English!
Though I had to wake up early, the time spent was definitely worth it- when you know that you are making a difference to someone's life. (:

Then was Project Deliver Me CIP under NLB with Sarah.
And I was late for an hour when I was supposed to meet her at 11.15am. Sorry once again!
It was a nice experience, cos I feel that I'm more open-minded now after meeting so many new people here and there through CIP.

We had to travel to 3 places, and they ain't near to one another somemore!
We travelled from Bugis to Boon Lay, then to Woodlands, then to Bukit Merah before the Uncle alighted us at Tiong Bahru MRT. Lol. What a day!

The NLB Bag with the books. (:

The folder with all the details of the places we need to go to. (:

Sarah & Me. (:
There's another volunteer with us too. And we were the only group doing the afternoon shift. Lol.

Life was easy cos we had this kind taxi driver who drove us around the places.
Thank you Uncle Sim!
And there's the other volunteer sitting in front of us. (:

And I rewarded myself after a long day with this- Cup Corn! My favourite! :D

I didn't help out with class preparation for the carnival today. Felt so bad now cos on the whole, I didn't really contribute much. Okay. Shall work doubly hard for tomorrow! Reporting time- 7am. Goodness!

Is this another trap?

3 April 2009

2009-04-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

Problems learning Elasticities of Demand for Economics?
Fret not! Listen to this... Haha! (:

How interesting. Lol! Not that useful though, but it's entertaining. Hah!

27 March 2009

2009-03-29T12:02:00.001+08:00

This is nice. (:

12 January 2009

2009-01-13T02:45:00.003+08:00

开心，不是得到的多，而是计较的少。(:

I always comfort myself with this whenever I feel I can do something better.
Anyway, don't you think this sentence makes a lot of sense?

It may not be the best score, but I'm contented with it. (:
Congrats to all who have done well, and for those who think they can do better, cheer up!
Honestly speaking, O's is just part of a journey. There's still a long way to go.
So, the most important thing is never give up. (:

11 January 2009

2009-01-11T20:19:00.002+08:00

It's coming. Hours later, all our lives will change. ):
I don't know what will happen to me tomorrow, but I'll face it and accept it, hopefully.

Worried? No doubt yes i am, but who can I share this anxiety with?
Friends can share part of your worries and try to make you feel easier, but at the end of the day, you're the one who will be taking that cert back and bringing it along with you for life.

Honestly, I missed school.

I missed wearing the school uniform, seeing the clique at the parade square every morning assembly, sitting in the classrooms (especially the one with Mr Tan's & Mr See's cartoon figures on the wall), planning and holding carnivals together, eating lemon chicken rice with friends before cca, enduring the recess hours with those not-so-nice food, sleeping in classes, going back home from school and taking a nap, and many more.

I wonder if those cartoons we painted on the wall are still there?

Been seeing students coming out from school after school hours, and i envy them so much, cos they can still go to school. ):

8 January 2009

2009-01-08T14:28:00.003+08:00

Priorities

If you were given $1,440 everyday, what would you spend it on?
You might travel, buy something for the house, or go out to eat.
But I'm sure of what you wouldn't do.
You wouldn't spend $240 to rent a television set for one day, and I'm sure you wouldn't spend $60 on a telephone call.

Yet many people do.

You see, we do get 1,440 every day- minutes, that is.
And some of us spend four hours or more watching television or an hour in idle chitchat.
We spend the opportunity of a lifetime.
We cash out the one account that will give us one of the greater returns.

Make the most of your time (and your money too) by setting priorities.
Spend some time on leisure, but not the whole amount.
Spend some time on planning, but be sure to work your plan.
Spend some time on others, but be sure to leave some time for yourself.

If you've "got a minute", you have a lot!

<<Minute Motivators For Men>>

I read this and found it makes some sense.
If minutes were to turn into money, I think i have spent a bomb in sleeping and watching the tv during the holidays.
Lol!

2 January 2009

2009-01-04T19:28:00.002+08:00

6aa gathering @ Pasir Ris Park. (:

Just as the students were back to school, we were cycling at PRP! (:
The cleaner who took the group photo for us was cute. Lol.
He took so long, and in the end there were only 3 photos of tiny little us in the pictures.
He even told us to squeeze together, so i thought maybe there wasn't enough space?
But look. Haha. (:
And he didn't give the cue one, so we just posed in the hot sun without knowing when they're done.

I love these few photos. (:
It's got the feeling of childhood memories in there. Haha.

It's a success for that day, i would say.
Though girls and guys are still a little...
Yup. But it's because many weren't from mixed schools, so.
Yeah.

At least, till now,
I still have one of the best impression of my p6 classmates.
And that is enough. (:

And hopefully, there'll be more and more gatherings! (:

31 December 2008

2008-12-31T00:21:00.001+08:00

After today, I want to become a better person.

Yes, I will.

(:

29 December 2008

2008-12-29T00:48:00.004+08:00

Random.

What to do on that day? ):

27 December 2008

2008-12-28T01:10:00.003+08:00

Ah! My childhood favourite. (:
Always sees it on the tv, now they only have it in vcds. Lols.

Is change really the only constant?

25 December 2008

2008-12-25T20:51:00.012+08:00

Merry Christmas! (:

My christmas tree! (:

How's my wrapping skills? Lol!

Christmas gift exchange with my friends.
I enjoyed the process of selecting the gifts for each and every one of them, then wrapping it up and attaching small notes to it. (:

I felt like a Santa Claus myself!

I spent a bomb, but the feeling of giving was great when you see how your loved ones appreciated the gifts from you. (:

Christmas Eve, Wednesday

Part 1

Caught Yes Man with Shan Ni, Lillian & Jason at Plaza Sing.
Visited Liling at her workplace too.

Overall, a nice movie. (:

Part 2.

(from V's blog)

Then, went over to Vanessa's house for her party. (:
Xiaomin, Amanda and Sijie were already there.
Played Billonaire and everyone was so high!
Then Alicia joined in too.

Dinner at Thai Express.
Walked around aimlessly at Thomson Plaza cos it was raining.
But we walked back in the rain eventually. =.=
Haha.

Took some photos, watched the TV all the way till i left at ten plus.

Yeah, it was a short period of gathering for me cos i didn't stay over, but that few hours spent with them were great. (:

Thank you!
Presents from all of them!
(Amanda, Alicia P, Xiao Min, Si Jie, Vanessa, Liling, Shan Ni, Lillian, Dawn)
Still have Alicia T's and Kelly's but theirs weren't in the picture!

Thanks for spending this christmas eve with me! (:

23 December 2008, Tueday

Went SSC with my mummy. (:
There aren't many shops, but there's...

DAISO!

Woo! I can just shop in there for hours without knowing!
Haha.
I love there because many diy ideas will keep flashing through my mind! (:

Till then. Have fun people! (:

22 December 2008

2008-12-22T23:35:00.006+08:00

6aa class gathering today @ Sentosa.
It's been like... 2-3 years since we had the last gathering.
Woke up early in the morning at 7.
Tired but definitely worth it. (:

About 20 turned up. That's about half the class, but i'm happy enough.
Overall, there were good and bad.

Good because...
i got to keep in touch with old friends and the feeling was so amazing,
there were nice people around whom were willing to help out,
it's my first time planning and response was good,
i made my dream come true for today- a 'class' photo taken.

Bad because...
there was still social segregation.
Like why? Can't we be just friendly to each other for one day when you can ignore them for 364 days?
That's the pity for today.
And i'm badly sunburnt because i thought the weather forecast predicted today to be a rainy day.
Awww. I'm okay with getting a little tanned, but not to the extent of having my skin turned red and then seeing dead skin falling off few days later.

But still. I didn't regret going. (:

Maybe. I'm still attached to the past?

18 December 2008

2008-12-18T02:33:00.004+08:00

This girl is superb! (:
She's Connie Talbot. Now she should be about 8 years old only, and she sings fabulously la!
I can only sing chinese new year songs when i was 8. Lol.
And she's got her own christmas album. So so so cool!

Here's one of her x'mas mtv url:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRfEG_R7Pdk

I've got nothing more to say about her voice. She's simply fantastic!

Everyone's talking about class chalet. Haha. So i don't think i'll be blogging on that, but photos will be uploaded once i get them? Yup. Anyway, chalet was great, cos i talked to more people. (:
But not all were present, so it's kind of a pity.

12 December 2008

2008-12-12T22:52:00.002+08:00

Movie outing with Vanessa & Alicia. (:
Watched Bolt. Quite a nice one. Lol.

Counting down to Christmas in 13 days!
And i'm turning 17 soon... on the twelfth night of Christmas? Lol!
Okay. Just being random. (:
I'm not a Christian, but I always enjoy Christmas.
The trees, the songs, the lights, the get-togethers, the presents!
It's so into the x'mas mood! Haha. (:

Have you ever wondered if Santa Claus is real?
Found this on the net. Read and know more?

Who is Santa Claus?

Santa Claus is based on a real person, St. Nicholas.

St. Nicholas, or Sinter Klaas in Dutch, was a very shy man and wanted to give money to poor people without them knowing about it. It is said that one day, he climbed the roof of a house and dropped a purse of money down the chimney. It landed in the stocking which a girl had put to dry by the fire! This may explain the belief that Father Christmas comes down the chimney and places gifts in children's stockings. (copyright of projectbritain.com)

When the Dutch introduced Sinter Klaas (St. Nicholas) to the Americans, they called him Santa Claus.

And I heard his hometown is in Finland? So cool!
Just imagine spending every christmas over there, waking up on christmas day to find a gift from santa! (:

Haha!

7 December 2008

2008-12-07T14:52:00.006+08:00

Accompanied my brother to yishun stadium for the shuttle bus to the marathon venue at 4am on my dad's van today. Someday, i must finish at least a full marathon too. Lol!

On the way back home, np suddenly came into my mind. Haha. I thought of the days where we used to have sentry duty, having to wake up in the middle of the night to do patrolling. The night was cold and silent, exactly the background settings of us doing sentry duty. Haha. Maybe i was just missing life in np, as a cadet. (:

Taiwanese Drill. Mount Ophir. Air Rifle. Camps. PT. Campcraft. NPCC Annual Parade. Amazing Race. Dragon Boat. Field cooking. Pulau Ubin. Abseiling. Kayaking. Rafting. Field Expedition. Map Reading. Wet Games. Campfire. Treasure Hunt. Changing Parade. (:

2 December 2008

2008-12-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

Theme Song of The Little Nyonya. Very very nice. (:

1 December 2008

2008-12-01T23:55:00.005+08:00

One of the sunsets near my house. The sky looks great. (:

I took up sewing recently...
actually, it should look something like this (above) ...

... but it turned out to be this! Lols

...but it got better the second time. (:

and i'm currently doing another one (incomplete). (:

Haha. Okay. I'm just being random. (:

14 Novemeber 2008

2008-11-14T13:17:00.001+08:00

A very nice song. (:

O's over! (:

I'll make full use of the long holidays to do all the things i want to do all these while!
Yeah. Everyone, enjoy your holidays too! (:

And! Daiso is opening its 4th outlet at Sembawang Shopping Centre in Dec!
How cool! Then i won't have to go all the way to town to get DIY materials! (:

10 November 2008

2008-11-10T17:52:00.002+08:00

Nice bunch of people whom i hang out with in class.
I just love them all. (:
Thanks for being there for me.
I love my past, the present, and perhaps the future?
I don't know yet.

Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward.

3 October 2008

2008-10-03T00:18:00.002+08:00

最后的一天。

最后一天唱校歌，最后一天以学生的身份穿着校服，最后一天和朋友一起度过这最后的一天。
感觉相当复杂。是快乐，又同时舍不得。
舍不得是难免的，毕竟在这里修读已将近四年，在这里的回忆的确不少。
1 Faith, 2 Endurance, 3/4 Faith, NPCC, Friends.
是你们，让我中学生活多姿多彩。谢谢！（：

明天以后，我就毕业了。
也算是长大了。

17 September 2008

2008-09-17T14:11:00.003+08:00

Prelims 2 is going to end soon.
I'm so not going to make it for both my sciences. ):
but i'll continue to work hard!
33 days to O's!
大家加油! (:

On a lighter note, i went to cut my hair today. (:
My fringe is back, say goodbye to my forehead!
(though i'll still pin it up in school for the time being =.=)

Something cheered me up recently.
Isn't it nice to re-contact a primary school friend after so many years and enjoy recalling the times you had together with them?
I think it's something very meaningful and sweet.
And it really brightens up my day to be able to 'find back' another long-lost friend.
It's a very special feeling, probably because of the hectic life we are going through.

生活中里，我不是主角，也不想当主角。 (:

5 September 2008

2008-09-04T23:36:00.005+08:00

45 days more! ):

I'm feeling the stress now.
The exam we've been waiting for 4 long years, and it's coming in 45 days.
Oh my god.
It's like, either we do it well once and for all, or we eventually die and screw this up.
How how how?!

I feel i'm not ready.
I don't want to see anymore red marks on my Amath papers anymore.
I don't want to go into the exam hall with a blank mind anymore.
I don't want to come out of the hall regretting everything i've not done for my academy.
I don't want to do badly for O's. I really don't want and i don't wish to.

Time's moving on very quickly
It seems there are many things to be done yet nothing's been completed.
It's such a terrible feeling.
Please, go away. ):

"I am sure U will do well cus U can and U will succeed."
That's what my pri school form teacher told me.
Can i really do it?
I can & I will. I can & i will. I can & I will.
I've been telling myself this, but it doesn't work.

Please, please let me finish this exam without any regrets.
Someone, please advise me!
I need some scolding.
):

Month of August (:

2008-08-31T15:35:00.015+08:00

8 August 2008 (:

An interesting class. (:
(:
NPCC Group photos!

Photos from liquan and xiaomin (:

31 August 2008

Polar bear! (:

30 August 2008 (:

Sec 4 Squad 2008 [Full squad!] (: Sec 3 Squad 2007 [Full squad!] (:
Sec4 Squad Girls 2008(: Sec 3 Squad Girls 2007 (:
Haha. A retarded photo of us. (:
The oldest & youngest of the squad. (:
07 & 08 P&P Department ICs! (: (without chris & shufei)

Sec 3 Squad! (without Darren, Zhi Hong, Jeffrey, Horng Jye)

Mr Thomas! A very nice teacher i knew in Sec1.

29 August 2008 (:

How much i miss this place! (:

My group's Health Education poster is still there! (:

Xuemei, Sukhanya, Siva (:

So much has happened. Remaining days of school in phs... i shall learn to treasure it. (:

3/4 Faith 07/08

2008-08-10T23:18:00.005+08:00

Sec 3 Adventure Camp 2007 @ Pulau Ubin (:

(4th Jan-6th Jan)

Sec 3 Taman Negara Trip 2007

(18th May-22th May)

Sec 4 Old Folks Home CIP 2008
(20th May)

Connect Singapore

(8 August 2008!)

Picture from Xiaomin (:

尽管全班拍照的次数不多，尽管我们之间并不是那么的团结，但其实，这四张照片足以能够形成我们在两年的时间所相处的回忆。很快的，我们就得从这间学校毕业了，不管将来怎么样，我想我应该不会忘记这一班吧。

谢谢你们！（：

21.06.08

2008-06-21T20:00:00.002+08:00

压力突然好大。
不是因为好胜，而是因为准备功夫不足。
真的好害怕，
一个星期后的我，在考场上时，脑子里一片空白。
嗨。
只怪我临时抱佛脚。

18.06.08

2008-06-18T16:58:00.002+08:00

下雨了，我却什么也不能做，只能眼睁睁看着天在发怒，在哭泣。
这种感觉令我觉得好无助。 ):

12.06.08

2008-06-12T19:46:00.003+08:00

It's so nice to know that people appreciates your work. (:

Took this from Peiqi's blog.

080608

2008-06-08T21:05:00.003+08:00

我宁愿我们不像现在那么熟。至少，最初的感觉永远充满着神秘感和惊喜。

Haha, something random. (:

陌生人，其实也没有我们想象中的孤单吧？

Off to camp soon.
It seems more like a study camp. Hahaha, my bag is full of books!
Will be back soon! (:

07.06.08

2008-06-07T23:51:00.005+08:00

Went to my grandmother's house early in the morning...

我的作品！（加上婆婆的帮忙）(:

Browsed through my phone a while ago, and saw these few photos...

4 Faith 2008

Everyone with their own unique appearance. (:

Jumbo Jumble Fair Preparation (:

C4-04 Homeroom Decoration Service (:

That is Mr Tan on the left & Mr See on the right.

Wonderful teachers.

Sec 4 Squad 2008 (:

一转眼，四年就这么过去了。很快就要放下这一切了。虽让放下心头大石，却还是有种说不出的舍不得，感觉生命中突然少了些什么。

虽然平常总是埋怨这个，埋怨那个，但其实要 step down 也并不是一件容易的事。尽管那四年里发生了什么好或不好的事情，毕竟我们都一起走过。虽让我和你们其中一些不是很熟，但是和你们这四年的相处，我十分感激。谢谢你们。(:

我想，我能体会我身边 CO 的朋友的感受了。

还有多 3 天。

03.06.08

2008-06-03T17:20:00.004+08:00

01.06.08.

我和大自然的约定。 (:

天空，原来这么美!

我最喜欢这张照片。(:

03.06.08

2008-06-03T17:17:00.001+08:00

不知为什么。
每当我来到这里，
我总是有种说不出的感觉。

28.05.08

2008-05-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

认了吧。

我们都是视觉化的动物。
只听悦耳动听的歌；只对美丽的事物印象深刻；只吃色香味俱全的食物，
难道不是吗？

《尝试》
我站在　不一样的起跑点
比别人　落后一些些
有时候　沮丧却谁看得见
毕竟我　非你的一切

我努力　想要靠近你身边
换来的　却不是你的理解
尽全力　向投入你的视线　
却发现　你我不同个世界

我尝试好好做人
做好一个情人
失业左右手　头号支持者
还是那个你能敞开心事的情人

我尝试好好做人
做好你眼中完美的人
无论如何
至少我尝试过了。　

不久前写的一首歌　(:

24.05.08

2008-05-24T17:43:00.005+08:00

Extracted from youtube (:

罗志祥's funny! Especially the way he screamed! Lol

习惯，是一件非常可怕的事。

23.05.08

2008-05-23T19:48:00.012+08:00

Everyone! GSS is here already!

Ahhhh! I'm gonna shop till i drop! Shoes, bags, accessories... 做女人真幸福！Lol (:

Thank god it’s Friday! (:

School was meaningless. I only came for the math test which was… cannot make it.
There was no pe lesson, but we played murderer during a cyber wellness workshop.
It’s been sometime since we last played it.
And, the old feeling of playing murderer is back once again. (:
I had a bad dream just now. It was so real! Aww, I don’t want to talk about it anymore! ):

True enough! (:

忠誠型（忠誠可靠，警覺性高）

您通常是忠誠、可靠、謹慎，而且富有想像力的思想者。您身為團體一員的時間比當領袖的時間多，但雖如此，您把自己放在眼高處，為那些被踐踏和受到不公平對待的人發言。您會是很好的調停專家，因為您會主動設想在任何情況中最糟的可能結果及其應對之道。

優點： 您能看出別人尚未發展的潛能，而且樂於幫助他們激發出來。大多數尋求您協助的要求都會得到正面的回應。

缺點： 覺得成功以掌握，所以避免成為權威人物。您總是在接近事業巔峰時更換工作，或時在即將功得圓滿時，遭遇到本可避免的「災難」。

愛情： 你必須感到自己能夠信任和認識伴侶才能在一起。即使在愛的關係中，而且有多年的承諾，懷疑仍然繼續出現，所以對於伴侶來說是很困惑的。

在親密關係中，要讓您了解自己情緒化的部份，可能要花上多年的時間。「在我接觸到自己的覺之前，這份關係已經渡過了七年。最後，這些情緒全都針對我所愛的女人浮現。」

安定方位：平和型
在安定的狀態下您會變得溫柔、溫暖而可愛。您能夠只是陪伴著朋友和愛人，享受放下警戒和懷疑。

壓力方位：成就型
當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會停止拖延，並很享受加速的感覺。運用想像力把工作完成。

建意：
留意自己奉行「陰謀論」的傾向
學習信任別人
留意自己對權力的質疑和態度

最渴望：安穩，有保障
最恐懼：缺乏安全感
最難達到的美德：勇氣 (Courage)
最難克服的執念：猜疑 (Doubt)

Taken this link from Jia Ling's website. Try this out!
http://www.parttimegroup.com/PartTimeLove/Assessories/NineType/_Paper1.aspx

或许因为我做事总是面面俱到，才容易被人误解成虚假，所以常被误会。
加上我不善于表达自己，人们才会觉得和我较难相处。
可是，这也不是我想要得的结果。

22.05.08

2008-05-22T21:12:00.005+08:00

Unbelievable.

I managed to endure through the 3 long days of chinese intensive lessons (without ponning) !

Thank god it was only 3 days, if not i would definitely get sick of chinese. (:

And attendance today was pathetic. Imagine 46/80 turned up?

We watched a movie during chinese lesson -《刮痧》

The kid in the movie was so adorable and 天真。(:

Watched another movie during CF lesson. Homeless to Harvard.

The girl was so determined and she cherished her life and education.

A living example. (:

I just went in to the mlg and check the holiday remedial programme.

4f's one was pretty slack. 3 straight days without any remedial! (:

怎样才算是一个虚假的人？
到底他/她是虚假，还是什么事都面面俱到？

21.05.08

2008-05-21T22:24:00.015+08:00

真的，人算不如天算。

一场地震，足以改变这些人的命运。

我才发现，原来自己是幸福的。

或许只有在灾难的发生，我们才学会如何去珍惜一切，并体会了人真情流露的一面。

好感人。

他们好勇敢。(:

读起来应该很无聊吧，把这些伤心事都说了出来，但这的的确确是我此时此刻的心情。我不想隐瞒。(:

SPA Physcis was okay but don't think i'll get the full 4 marks.

Oh, and i got back my chemistry test today, glad that my efforts paid off. (:

Prelim 1 is just a month away and i haven't study much. Hais.

Shall start to work hard from now on!

大家，加油吧！

; 幸福需要的磨练我们都误解成搁浅 (:

伍家辉 - 《空缺》

20.05.08

2008-05-20T19:02:00.008+08:00

去年的今天...

我们应该还在那里吧。(:

今年呢？

我们来到了老人院。(:

开心，不是得到的多，而是计较的少。

简简单单，多好。

开见那些老人，我顿时想起了外婆。

外婆，我好想念你。